for miss unedited

were you lost once in some blue hotel room
papered with peter pan?
did you forget who you once were?
with no one to remind you
shattered in a mirror black as ray-bans

other daughter
third little
fierce girl-boy in black cashmere and basketball shoes
perfect black hair shock and pretty lipped vampiric smile
(don't you dare get those teeth fixed)
you send me photos of your grocery cart and i am proud of your broccoli
your apples and organic strawberries
seeing you learn how to care for you
after years of not

you come over and play basketball with sam and bring jasmine your old bright hoodies
since you wear only black now
and sometimes when you are sad, you put your head in my lap like a long, sweet, slightly feral kitty cat
who sometimes needs a home
and butternut squash soup and chocolate chip cookies from the oven

sometimes when i am caring for you like a child i forget
that you are the one i call when i am most afraid
that you were there
with pink flowers and phone calls
more than anyone else when my mother died
that you counsel me like a true sage on work and men
and then i remember that when i'm gone
you are the one i will want my children to go to first
to be held and reminded
who i was
by one who knows
herself

Comments

  • jungle dream pagoda Sunday, 01 May 2011

    Such an amazing tribute to a loved one as only FLB...

    Such an amazing tribute to a loved one as only FLB can give.

  • Anonymous Friday, 29 April 2011

    i love this so much. i hope that i can be this per...

    i love this so much. i hope that i can be this person to my friends when they need it most. you continue to inspire me with your words. love

  • pocket mouse Thursday, 28 April 2011

    This is so, so lovely. x

    This is so, so lovely. x

  • Anonymous Thursday, 28 April 2011

    dear francesca lia block, i love you. i want to wr...

    dear francesca lia block,i love you.i want to write books that will be for someone somewhere what your books are for me,which is lifesavers.

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